boys are just.... stupid.

I think it's a universal rule that most boys don't think before talking, or think before doing anything for that matter. As a whole, boys can be just right down assholes, debauchees, idiots, stupid, or anything else that you can think of. But with that being said, we need to reflect on ourselves and ask ourselves, why are we attracted to the horrible and in it for just the sex or the physical stuff? or why do we keep talking to them?

I always say that I'm done with online dating because I had bad results but then not even a year later, here I am again on some other app or site and i get the SAME RESULT. big, big shocker there. but i'm still hurt and i'm crying to my best friend and yelling at myself because I was seriously so stupid to fall for it yet another time. so why am i surprised that this one was an asshole as well? i swear, i trust so easily and like them so easily, and then when they stop talking to me randomly, i get hurt and confused. Its a vicious cycle that i can't get out of.

because after all, i am the one that lets them in my life and in my heart. so why do i get mad at them or others around me when they fail me? i'm not saying its all my fault or all their fault. but man, this sucks.

if he isn't giving you the time of day, he isn't worth your time. don't waste your time worrying about what to say to him or what not to say to him. don't even think about him. go hang out with your best friend. play a video game. listen to some music and sing along with the radio. just get him out of your mind and forget he even exists. because seriously, why think about someone so much if they aren't even paying rent in your brain? if they aren't texting you or calling you, why should you be thinking about him?

and just know that you are NOT alone in this world. there are girls just like you struggling, hurting, and wanting to know the same things as you. talk to someone, don't keep it bottled up. it will eventually have to come out, at least make it come out naturally and not let it explode. 

P.S. Boys are stupid, forget dating boys. go find a man who will treat you right and respect you for who you are and will take you out to dinner and not try anything on the first date. a real man wont make you take off your clothes without getting to know your heart. a real man will treat you the way you should be treated. i know you're thinking, how would i know this? because i have seen it. my grandpa did it, and i'm pretty sure that times have changed but respect hasn't. waiting is so much better than you think it is. 

--the girl with the bird tattoo.